I recently had to break-up one of my close relationships. It was time. There were obligatory dates where I just felt no connection and needed to make a clean break. That's right folks--it is the start to the second week of NOT PUMPING. I recently had a discussion with another new ATL mommy about how we were both considering silencing the Medela at work--you'd be surprised at the mixed emotions you have over a 2 lb, battery operated udder machine.
I wanted to last at least a year with breastfeeding. There is no question that I'll continue well into the coming months. I cannot imagine weaning Miles from any of the sessions we have--and he certainly is not interested or ready. But, I also wanted to last a year of exclusively feeding him breastmilk. Well folks, the udders were never stellar performers, and over the past few months, we had to supplement with formula. Eliminating pumping completely (although, I will still hand express bottles when the lactation spirit moves me) will necessitate more formula, but being 3 days away from his 1st b-day, I am feeling okay about it all.
The break-up was gradual. I started reducing by one pumping session a day. And then I got to the point I am at now where I still bring the pump to work, but let it sit under my desk.
I cannot say I'll miss the multiple times a day I had to clean the parts to the pump, or the noise it made at work, or the middle of the night "hook ups," but this decision does bring to mind that Miles is probably on his tail end of breastfeeding, and it makes me sad. So, until (if) another child enters the picture, the Medela and I are breaking up.