Thursday, June 4, 2009

Somedays, motherhood makes you feel weak...

Before I launch into the latest episode of "are you kidding me?" I thought I would share the quick "sneak" we got of the professional pictures we had with Miles last weekend. We'll get the full sampling in a few weeks, but in the meantime, enjoy Danielle's great blog post with a few of his pictures. I am surprised she didn't mention how ornery he was...although you can tell on his face how serious he is (what's new!).

He really was not himself that day and hasn't been recently. Plus, he has been favoring his right foot (the Kooky one) while standing and not putting pressure on his left. Well, after a nearly 2 hour adventure at the ortho's office (thanks for taking him while I was at work, Dad!) Miles came home grumpier than ever with a full GREEN LEG CAST. 3 weeks with the darn thing. X-rays show that he probably has a fracture. How did he get this fracture? We have NO idea, but let me tell you, I thought the guilt with having lead in our house was intense...this just overwhelms me. I might as well call the department of child and family services myself to preempt any attempt they'll make at an investigation into Miles's sordid medical history. I try so hard to be thankful for our blessings and all that has gone well in our lives. Especially in the wake of the sad news about one of Eric's students passing, but there are moments I admit to feeling really sorry for myself. Tonight I am pouring it on thick. In fact, I am tempted to eat ice cream for dinner, take a warm shower, and find some trash television to fall asleep to.

They say God only gives you what you can handle, but recently, I feel like God must have mistaken me for someone who is much stronger. I am not one who is into public prayer, but please God, can we just have 1 month, hell, 1 WEEK of not worrying and allowing us to witness that happy, healthy boy that I know is in there?

I am not sure that the readership of this goes much beyond my close friends and family, but it's been an incredibly emotional month even beyond the "intel" I have provided on this blog. I may take a bit of time to just re-center and let life adjust back to a more comfortable pace before blogging again. There's a lot to digest right now. Don't abandon me, though...I'll be back! And until then, I'll let this boy's eyes tell you why I will continue to love, worry, and do whatever it takes to have a healthy family:
Thank you Danielle Bryson Photography! (She is wonderful...)